Well, basically...life can be so messed up sometimes.
I make bad decisions that wind up getting me involved
with people who really want to help me, but just can't.
I wish that I had never started doing any of this in the
first place.
I would never have picked it up and pressed down.
I never would have stopped doing something so essential
for life.
Some days, I am so ashamed of who I have turned into
again.
I thought I was free...but apparently not.
Now it leaves me with this meeting on Monday that I
am so scared of.
I am comfortable where I am right now.
I shouldn't be, but I am.
I surrender it all to God, but then I take it back.
I can't control it.
I am out of control.
I need help.
That is what they are going to do.
Help me.
I make bad decisions that wind up getting me involved
with people who really want to help me, but just can't.
I wish that I had never started doing any of this in the
first place.
I would never have picked it up and pressed down.
I never would have stopped doing something so essential
for life.
Some days, I am so ashamed of who I have turned into
again.
I thought I was free...but apparently not.
Now it leaves me with this meeting on Monday that I
am so scared of.
I am comfortable where I am right now.
I shouldn't be, but I am.
I surrender it all to God, but then I take it back.
I can't control it.
I am out of control.
I need help.
That is what they are going to do.
Help me.
Why am I so scared of getting better once and for all?
1 comment:
I feel the exact same. It's scary to get help & get better & CHANGE. It's a huge step of faith. But once we step out and see how God worked despite our fears & doubts, I guess that's whats gona strengthen our faiths the most. Best wishes
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